This is my story, this is my past…… This was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make, but I knew that it was that I needed to do in order to find true happiness. It broke my heart, the journey of sadness!
I’ve been dating with someone, we both separated by a distant (four hours away). Everything was fine at the first. I was doing fine with the distant and trying to manage the relationship. But there’s a moment when everything goes through rough times. He has a busy life, managing his business and always traveled across the country to do his job. We keep in touch trough the text, phone call and sometimes make a time to seeing each other. I do fine with this and he is too. But it’s became rough when he is in busy, hectic, tiredness and the business is not fine. And at the other day I woke up and felt like something was missing in our relationship – its weird feeling. The issues in our relationship was became a hug issues. Don’t get me wrong, the issues have been brought up to him several times before, the simple issue is about communication sometimes he said that I text him too much! I know every time he had a rough time, he never replay me back – but is okay, I tried to understand. And the most issue is about married – before we started the relationship I told him that I needed certain things to make it work (do more things as a couple, future marriage and having children) and he agree about it. Well… when you’re in love – a relationship can be a great “comfort zone” but it can be “discomfort zone” when things not doing right. As I’m feeling very sad & depressed over my decision to end my relationship, but I know in my mind I made the right decision. I had made so many excuses with this condition even though my heart knew what kind of pain it would be in when I make the decision. I finally left and I left him without told him, he sent me some text and makes a phone call! Sad and anger was filling me up, I never replayed and picking up his phone. I knew without a shadow of a doubt, enough is enough! I’m broken heart but if I stayed I would lost all of myself worth.
There is no turning back this time. Nothing is permanent – no matter how tightly – how hard I stand & hold onto that relationship is over. That relationship became rough & hurtful. I felt like a fool because I love him before, I put some hope, gave him strength in himself, made him laugh, shared the joy and laugh, and shared him many things. It’s always complicated when we talked about love and feeling, but enough is enough now. I was doing the right thing!
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